Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Blocked Goals

As part of our small group, we are going through the book "Victory Over the Darkness" by Dr. Neil Anderson. This book has been amazing at discovering who I am in Christ and what that means. On our small group blog, Faith CYA, the questions were asked:

When has one of your goals been blocked? 

How did you respond emotionally to your foiled plans and blocked goals? What thoughts went through your mind?

One of my goals has always to be a teacher. I remember when I was a wee little one I would teach my stuffed animals from my Monster Math book (I actually think I still have that fun workbook, anyways, I digress). So when I FINALLY completed my student teaching and worked toward getting my license I was completely frustrated by the hiring freeze that is in place now. My goal of pursuing my dream has been put on hold, and I have no clue for how long.

The thoughts that have gone through my head because of that have been riding on a rollercoaster. At first, I was frustrated and upset. What I had worked so hard at achieving now had to be put on the back burner. But, now, I have become okay with it. I had a horrible student teaching experience, and I honestly lost my passion to teach. I knew it was still my goal and what I felt God was calling me to do, but my drive to pursue that goal had diminished. I now see this hiring freeze as Gods way of letting me take a break so my passion could build back up in my heart. The past few days I have had the itch to teach again, and honestly, I don't think that would have happened had I not had this break.

I have never posted the questions and my answers here, but I felt this was extremely important for you all to think about as well. As Jeremy would say, "until next time..."

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Great personal observation. I think there is a lot of truth to that. Sometimes the way to reignite our hearts is to have a season where, by God's hand or ours, we step away from the things we are passionate about!